Charles Kurniawan

Another Happy day - 1

Ok.. Right now is 11:30pm.. I should have hit my bed and go for tomorrow's travel at 6:00am.. Duh... I just couldn't sleep before write this down... Cause I knew that I'm gonna forget all these things I want to say by tomorrow morning.. =) I'm Pikun you know... hehhehe

Alright... today I am so grateful that my Tim Ayam end up not bad at all... I am happy that my sister, cousin actually but I look at her like my own sis, pretty much like my cook.. =) Also my friends netty and desi... You know, what could be better for a cooker to find out that the taster love their cook.. NONE.. so I'm happy...

Talking about happiness, about a few hours ago.. my friend email me with a question about true happiness... She asked whether true happiness is really exist?

Hmmm I don't know where to begin... True Happiness... What is it actually.. Hey really, have you ever think "What is true happiness??"... seems like everyone dreaming to achieve that... but without knowing what it is, I think it would be like chasing the wind... U don't even know what things are you chasing..

I have read and heard lots of saying about it... some people said that you can have that by having lots of friends, that stand by your side... but there is a time or lots of time later on .. that you will find your friend cannot be fully care to you, hey they need to prioritize themselves rather than you doesn't it??.. and you then feel left behind or find out that you are actually alone..

I also heard of saying that it is not friends that can give you happiness but the one who loved you... well yeah .. for longer period ... but you know... to whom that have experienced in relationship, will find out that your girl or boy friend sometimes or most of the times,for the unlucky one, becoming one of the most selfish being, especially when he/she is in the bad mood.. and made you ill fill..

And if you are the lucky one, you probably have someone who love you sooo much that always be there for you and do things for you.. bla bla bla ... so hey, you happy because of that?? having somebody sacrificed their time, money and sometimes even pride for your needs..  well maybe you feel fun, pleased  and satisfied, knowing that you are being acknowledged or served by some people.. but I am sure that in the end, you will again feel there is emptiness...

So I think having lots of friends or someone who loved you are not True Happiness... Also it is not only lots of laughter and funs things going on in your day... I think its beyond those... So what is it ?? I DON'T KNOW!! hehehe yeah.. actually I don't know ... Its a hard question.. and right now 12:15am ... I just spent 45 min to think about that and still have no answer... but I promise you I will try to answer that in the next blog hehehe ... sorry for making you guys reading this long stupid writing... mwahahhaha....

Tomorrow I'm going to the beach!! YEAAAHH!! WHO'S THE BEACH BOY??!! ITS ME!!

G-nite...

Im blue..

What a bad day!!...

Sekali lagi .. aku kehilangan barang...

Sekarang kacamataku ... =( aku dulu dah janji ama diri sendiri ga beli barang mahal lagi ... tapi aku ngingkari... eeh sekarang ilang deh ... payah banget...

Salah satu sifat terjelek ku ... TELEDOR!! dan susah untuk di hilangi ... apa lagi saat aku banyak pikiran ... dan herannya aku ga solving problem ku untuk jadi ga teledor .. tapi aku making solution untuk ga beli barang mahal ato tergantung ama orang laen untuk ngingetin aku ... ive been running away from the main problem...  I know iknow .. i should face my problem and make my self a little bit careful... but its the hardest thing for me to do... seriously...

selaen itu... aku somehow sense kalo ada masalah antara aku ama sepupuku.. well aku ga tau itu .. that the biggest problem ... maybe i made mistake that I didnt realize ... ato attitudeku ada yang ga bener .. tapi aku ga tau ... duh!! not knowing the problem is very anoying ... and its bother me and keep me away from sleeping ... yg jelas ... aku kerasa dia rada menghindar for even talking to me =(

I could be hated by everyone else and still have a good night sleep.. but not from one of my family... I hope its getting better soon ...

dan yang ketiga yg membuat hari ku tambah buruk!!! THERE ARE POP UPS IN MY COMPUTER!! THIS F%#@*%$ SPYWARE HAS LOTS OF STUPID ADVERTISEMENT ON MY COMP!! INCLUDING PORN!! The worst thing is ... Those stupid pic saved on the cookies in temp internet files... I just know it since one of my friend, a girl, accidently open the damn picture.. in the temporary folder!! IN FRONT OF FACE... AND I JUST SILENCED WITH THE UNPLEASANT SUPRISED AND SHAME AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ... Wondering what were she thinking?? "YOUR ARE BUSTED CHARLES!!"

What a great WAY to find out there is PORN on my comp... !

DUH!!

What a day...

Reason - What you think is what you are..

Recently one of my friend ask me about what I wrote in "Drifter" blog..

She asked.. is it really doesnt matter to our life to know the existence of God..

well some people who love to find the truth, by knowing that God does exist, will think and rethink again to find out why does He created us for?? ...
but i bet these people are minority among thinker group which is already the minority... so what i meant is most people would not even bother to change his or her life for Him ...
EVEN to people who already believe that He is exist, yet their lifestyle is not changing at all.. so ... Does it really matter anyway knowing that we actually has the divine creator or our life is just accidently from momentum of particle that has ever existed eternally someway or somehow ..

Hey... so to me personally ... I sense what is right or wrong by my logic and the way of thinking ... I judge things right or wrong from that... by reason...

Reason is man’s mean of survival. Reason is man's only means of knowing reality, upon which his survival in reality depends.
Whether man is alone on a desert island,  scurrying around with a pack of savages,  or living in a city of billions: man must think; and then act on his thinking, if life is his goal.

by reason we can sense what is right or wrong and also by reason we can choose our religion our whom will be our God... not agreed?? well can a crazy or insane man can be faithful to God?? I dont think so.. you need your brain to be that faithful..

also think about it ??? who is more sovereign over our life?? is it God himself or ourself??
this is stupid question that most people will easily answer.. "Of course God.. duh!!" but actually think about it... For me, I think we, ourself more sovereign.. why?? because we the one who choose who is our God going to be??
is it Jesus or Budha or stupid stone or a fire... it us who determined it... and by reason we choose.. by our personal's reason... 

Even though I would agree that I think most people will not that smart enough to formulate perfect logic to know what would be the divine truth ...
anyway... so now you asked me does it really matter anyway to know he exist or not... I think it does NOT really matter... what matter is our own REASON (Way of thinking) that will effect our life...

what do you think???

PS: In case some people doesnt know what reason is...

its.. bisa di bilang "rational motive" atau "think logically"

To My friends and My Class.. Love ya guys!!

Time is running faster when you have a great moment… duh I hate that… should be the other way around :(… We have been together all these time, going out, sharing, singing, dancing, and caring each other... well now our study in Beijing is finished.. time to end this good time...

Recently some of my close friends going back home to their country… left me here in Beijing. Well sounds like no big deal... hey! you had another friends or maybe you can make a new one, so no big deal.. Life goes on, isn’t it ??!! hmm yeah true… but somehow you got this feeling that make you hesitant to do things that you usually like to do.. well I also thought its no problem at all before they left… but after it I realize its actually there is something missing… you know it’s actually its a same day that passing by… same place you go, same environment around you… but somehow there is something gone …. things that often make you comfortable, give you feeling of accepted and acknowledged.

It is easy to find a new friend and make one.. but hard to maintain a good friendship … but nothing can compare the difficulty of saying farewell to a good friend .. especially when you know that you are not going to meet them anymore…

Friends come and go … but really good friend are rare to find… they never go and disappear… they stay in the heart forever… Thanks guys for giving me a wonderful time here in Beijing...                  

                               

                                                                                                                                                                         

                                     

For my class in Beijing, A5 Ban!!! You guys RULE!!!!

Thank you for all of you to give me such a great class… you guys not only remind me my wonderful high school moment, but even gave me a better one :)

Especially to Jia Laoshi, for being a great teacher... not only teaching us chinese, but china history and lots of wisdom for us.

To Kong laoshi our xiao bai tu laoshi, You really is something... :) fierce, funny, and funky laoshi hehehe ...

To Lin laoshi, thanks for the game you create for us... nice birthday party =)                                     

 

To banzhang, Thanks for being a great leader and never stop having ideas and jokes to cheers us up.. a great playboy that his name should be considered as one of legendary playboy next to casanova hehehehe

For my tong zuo, Lin ai li… You still owe me a lunch!!!  thanks for being a great photographer so we have 1.7gb of picture in my hard drive.. duh! And yeah.. you are a great cheerleader afterall, big one hehehe =)

For Fermi… thanks for your bite … gave me all these bruise in my arms… =) … also thanks for the fun game in the class hehehe …

For Hen ke ai boy, Thank you for remain cute after we bully you mwahhahahaha…                                                 

                                                                                                      

For Amoy, thanks for being very nice.. and funny all the time... but I hate when you suddenly disappear for 3 whole weeks!!! But you still great … love ya!!                                 

For Melanie, the snow bear… Thanks for class picture you made.. I put it on my desk to remind me of you guys.. but not only that, thanks for blocking our picture with your HUGE head…                                                                                     

For Anton, Thanks for the cd and all the design for our class.. you rule!!!

                                                                         

And for others, thanks for being a good team and friends…

Women de ban shi wo de jiao ao….