Charles Kurniawan

Lazy

Right now is 10:30 in the morning.. I just done my bath (pretty late huh), there are so much things to do today.. I need to get my passport from the visa office, take care my luggage, dry clean, looking for apartement, buy a plane ticket, and company my friend to go to australian embassy to get her PR done.. but despite all these works that need to be done.. I am still here sitting browsing internet and writing this blogs with no purpose of doing it.. just wasting my time and fill my laziness needs... I couldnt believe how lazy I am in china...

There are so many things going on last week... I went to monggol.. yeah monggol!! ... Beside my bad travel agent with an unproffesional tour guide who communicate with pretty much close range, anoyed my comfort zone, that yelled all the time whenever he talks with all these sticky and almost dry saliva around his mouth with some wierd smell that almost make me puke, the monggol tour was not bad at all.. it was fun...

I was riding horses on the vast grass field, it was great but my ass hurt.. sleep at monggol hut, its interesting but not comfortable... the food sucks, oh well... go to monggol dune, its damn cold.. (I only bring my t shirt!! never expect mongol is only around 10 degree C) hmmm sounds not a good trip doesnt it?!... Well maybe not comfortable trip.. but monggol is really different than other place.. the people, the food, the life there, and the dancing... Its interesting...

Oh yeah also my train experience is pretty fun... so it was 12 hours train from beijing to monggol.. right when you enter the train you can see a rusty steel around with dirty seat and bed with no air con, and just to let you know, the chinese often not taking shower every day... sometimes once a week!! seriously!!... so imagine you stay with lots of them inside a old rusty train with no aircon.. you can get this stinky breeze, hmmm hard to explain how stinky it is... and you have to hold that for 12 hours!! YEAH 12 HOURS!!! but its ok ... you will get use to it...

Seems like I dealed with a lots of smell here in monggol... but the scariest of all... is my tour guide's close range mouth with full of almost dry saliva... afraid it would spray to my face!! aaargh!!

hmmm my friend just finished taking shower... i need to get ready to go... cya later guys...

My Church

My lovely church at xuan wu men.. I am still grateful to Ika to invite me to go together with to this church... Because of that invitation, I met Marco and found out that we have same hobby... EATING GOOD FOOD!!.. well back to the topic ... I am very happy to be in catholic church... feels like really a "church" to me ... cause I usually go to the indonesian christian church.. don't get me wrong, that church is ok.. but I prefer catholic ways rather than christian way in worshiping.. to me catholic is more like taking God as our God or King rather than taking Him as our friends or father... that we talk to him with respect and with orders like etiquette etc...

Anyway... today there is something pop out of my mind while looking at my pastor... Hey... he is a Chinese with lousy English pronunciation ... I mean seriously lousy... me and other friends, cannot understand what he was saying... he just keep mumbling and mumbling ... we can only get a sentences or two then there we go.. we lost again... :) But suprisely... this church still full of people and even lots of standing people on the back.. people really come here to seek God not to seek the pastor or the speech...

This partor of ours... he looks like a decent guy with a good looking and able to maintain his study at US.. so basically he is more than just regular people in China.. he can have a good wife here with a decent job... but he choose to be pastor... not married and doesn't have income... while the Chinese.. they are crazy about family things... like they live their life for the family.. and since here you can only have 1 children .. so I guess my pastor is not out of exception... he should have no brother or sister to replace him to take care his parents... so he really does leave all the worldly things for God...

I really do amazed by him...
Jia You Pastorku..... Hope you improve your pronunciation soon...

Live my life

Oh well, akhirnya habis juga waktuku di beijing... Agustus 10 ini bakalan pindah ke shanghai. ga tau aku mesti seneng ato sedih.. yang jelas my life in beijing is pretty much wonderful.. sampe jadi sayang banget ninggalin beijing...
Mulai dari kelasku yang enaak bangeet... dan bisa tinggal ama cousinku walau aku ga terlalu deket ama dia .. but ive been longing to stay together with one of my family even only relative..
Trus bisa kenal ama Marco, temen yang bisa diajak ngobrol, sharing dan lebih dari itu dia temen yang aku bisa percaya.. dan Ika yang males dan banyol.. (well I still missed you guys.. wish you are here.).. Hamdani juga dateng nyambangi gue... temen baekku dari LA yg dah 4-5 taon kali ya ga ketemu ...
sekarang kenal ama Netty... yg badanya kecil tapi mempunyai bokong besar kaya adeku sherly, dan herannya character dia mirip banget ama aiku di indo dan betapa coincidence nya kalo dia punya background keluarga yg kurang lebih kaya aku...
donk!!...I've never met a person that has attributes so similar with the attributes of my family.. its like looking at myself, aiku, dan adeku together combined! heuheuheue...
Hey really, they are not friends that I can find every time or at every place... they really special to me... Too bad waktu bersama ama mereka begitu pendek... Ada saat saat aku pernah wish, seandainya aku bisa kenal mereka dari dulu dan bisa lebih lama...
anyway thank to them to paint my life become more colorful..

Hmmm, jalan jalan ke beidaihe gagal!! duh =( .. rencananya kita ke pantai nigh .. tapi akhirnya ke gunung lagi.. sebenarnya gunungnya not bad, in fact it was beautiful... tapi kurasa karena semua berharap melihat pantai .. jadi pas di gunung kita semua kurang impression..
dan juga karena aku suck in planning.. kita susah dapet tiket pulang ke beijing dari sana.. akhirnya aku buat the rest of the group suffer from my incapability .. sorry guys.. I really do..
Ga cuman susah dapet tiket.. aku juga ga ngecek cuaca.. dan pas hari kedua disana hujan .. makanya akhirnya ga jadi ke pantai =(.. padahal mereka dah spent lots of money for this trip... all faults are on me =(

Tentang kebahagiaan sejati yang mesti nya aku mulai tulis masih belon kepikir nigh.. aku pun masih belon jelas itu tuh apa.. soalnya juga ga pernah kepikir sampai ada temen SMA ku tanya... Atau mungkin aku memang belon konsen kesana.. soalnya aku lebih kepikir tentang masa laluku...
aku baca satu article yang bener bener hit my mind... sesuai banget ama kehidupanku sekarang dan pas banget pada saat sekarang.. saat yang aku harus face suatu masalah yang dah lama aku lari dari itu....

Semua orang punya masa lalu, bener ga?? Kamu ga bisa lari atau sembunyi dari itu...
Mungkin kamu ga harus mencintai masalalumu tapi yang jelas indah atao jelek kamu harus hidup dengan itu...
Aku ga bisa bilang kalo punyaku dulu indah atao ancur.. tapi aku bisa bilang kalo aku menghidupi hidupku dengan segenap hatiku dan pikiran yang semuanya yg telah ku jalani membentuk diriku yg sekarang ini..
Aku kerasa perlunya aku memikirkan hal ini karena sebentar lagi aku harus memutuskan sesuatu yang sangat penting dalam hidupku yang semuanya bersangkutan dengan masa laluku... Aku baru baru ini kangen lagi ama Amrik.. terutama Tucson, an ugly dirty city in the middle of desert... yeah its that city not LA nor SD nor Boston... but Tucson.. in fact aku kangen ama satu gunung namanya Mt. Lemon...
I love that place karena disana tempat aku biasa lagi bengong, mikir, ngeliat bintang, and place where I have a thought of God..dan juga tempat salah satunya pengalaman special ... tapi I also hated it so much karena di tempat yang sama juga terjadi hal yg paling menyakitkan... I'm still bleeding inside till now...

Kadang gampang untuk ngucapin "forgive" atau "forget" tapi susah banget untuk membuat itu jadi kenyataan di hidup ini... Apalagi saat sakitnya luka itu belon hilang... sedih dan kecewa membuat aku jadi sering wonder kenapa sih koq gini?? Apa yang salah??...
Dan itu membuat ada yang berubah dalam diriku... menjadi lebih takut, adanya rasa untuk giving up, tidak percaya lagi dan protektif untuk memulai lagi... Apa perubahan ini baik atao jelek, bener atau salah?, aku ga tau... tapi yang aku yakin ini bukan buah cinta kasih... dan hidup masa depan yg dijalani tanpa cinta kasih adalah hidup yg paling menyedihkan...

Hmmm sebenarnya mau ngelanjutkan lagi.. tapi sekarang aku dah laper banget dan netty dah ngomel karena aku belon mandi.. jadi... ntar ku lanjutin deh ... aku post dulu heueuhueheu

Makan apa ya??? Ano?

Ambition is a poor excuse for not having sense enough to be lazy.