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What should I do when  face same problem I had before?

Should I act the same or differently?
is it just to the past when you do differently?

what make it different?

Is it because the condition is different, that I have vow and deeper commitment now than before?

But is it actually worth it?

That for this commitment I let the disgrace to those I once loved the most.

Is it still worth the sacrifice? That I become a man of my word but lose my heart...

Of course,those who broke promise or escape from his commitment are called TRASH...
But...
Those who abandoned the one they loved because a promise EVEN WORSE TRASH...

What should I do?